Estrella Calderon shares how she found peace in religion after dealing with depression.
It was like my life had sunken into a deep dark ocean, I didn’t know what to do with my life, my depression was worse than ever, and worst of all, I would try to hide and refuge myself under substances, until one day I was found and brought back to the light.
Growing up I was surrounded by people that loved God and appreciated his blessings, I never really understood what it all meant, and how important it was, so I lived my childhood with a belief that didn’t really matter to me.
As I grew up and started to learn more about my religion, I didn’t know what to do with it, so I ignored it. During this time, I was depressed and had lost hope. I consumed things that weren’t good for me, I was doing bad things and was still going to church. I thought that, getting close to God was impossible for me at this state.
After a whole year of going through this hopeless feeling, I finally got the chance to meet God at a Christian camp. I challenged God, and told Him, if He didn’t show me He was real, I was going to give up trying. And just like how I asked, he showed himself during the pastor’s altar call. I thought it was funny or ridiculous even, but I saw other people do it so I followed. Once I did, a sensation of peace dropped down into my whole body and for the first time, I understood who God was when He spoke, and said that I was going to be OK.