Three little girls gathered around 20-year-old Charlotte Bleu at a preschool in San José, and squealed, “I like Miss Charlotte! She’s a good teacher.”
Bleu beamed, as she looked down at her doting students.
She said she’s grateful her life is back on track, just a few years after struggling with depression and numbing her pain with heroin and crystal meth.
“I had a plan one day to try to commit suicide, and my plan was to use fentanyl to do it,” said Bleu, recalling a moment of despair when she was just 18. “I wanted all my problems to go away.”
In 2021, fentanyl, which can be up to 50 times more potent than heroin, was responsible for roughly 20% of deaths among 15- to 24-year-olds in California. That same year, the state’s overall fentanyl-related death toll was more than six times higher than just three years earlier.
While overdose deaths among young people have skyrocketed across the country in recent years, rates in the Golden State are even higher than the national average.
The night Bleu smoked fentanyl for the first time, she overdosed. “I was out for 30 minutes,” she said. “It was crazy. I almost didn’t survive.”
Bleu’s friends eventually sprayed three doses of Narcan, which reverses opioid overdoses, into her nose to restore her breathing.
That was the beginning of her downward spiral into fentanyl addiction. It was cheap and easy to buy from street dealers in the Tenderloin neighborhood. Every time she tried to quit, withdrawal symptoms — like intense itching, nausea and cold sweats — struck with a vengeance.
“I remember laying in bed all day feeling like complete garbage and not knowing if I was going to make it out or not,” Bleu said. “Every few days I would just give up and smoke again because I couldn’t handle the feeling of withdrawal.”
She says she had to lose everything before she sought help. “I lost my car, I lost my friends, my boyfriend. I just kind of lost touch with myself,” she said.
Bleu was able to start getting help through a Santa Clara County drug counselor who eventually directed her to a new treatment program for youth.
“They were there for me when no one else was,” said Bleu. “They helped me get on Suboxone to get off of the drugs, and help with the withdrawals.”


