When J. Worthen was hired as a warehouse assistant at Small Press Distribution in Berkeley in 2014, they hoped to work there for the rest of their career. The mission of Small Press Distribution, or SPD, is to make writing by underrepresented communities more accessible. Worthen loved having a role in helping to make that happen.
But by 2018, Worthen said it became impossible to ignore the divide between the nonprofit’s mission and how they were being treated because of their sexual orientation and gender identity.
During a trip to Tampa, Florida, for the Association of Writers and Writing Programs conference that year, Worthen was eating dinner with their boss, Brent Cunningham, and Abigail Beckel, the founder of Rose Metal Press, one of SPD’s publishers.
Out of nowhere, according to Worthen and Beckel, Cunningham said Worthen was asexual, and went on to ask a series of intrusive questions. Worthen said at one point he asked whether they would still be asexual if they weren’t so close to their sister.
“I really was in escape mode. I didn’t know how to address it at the moment without jeopardizing my job,” Worthen said. “[Rose Metal Press] is one of SPD’s top publishers. He had no problem creating an uncomfortable situation for both of us.”
Beckel said she thought Cunningham’s behavior was “wildly inappropriate.”
A few months later, Worthen published an essay that described the experience. While Worthen did not name anyone in their piece, they still expected to lose their job, or for there to be some sort of reaction from the organization.
Instead, Cunningham “liked” the essay on Facebook and after that, Worthen said, they never heard from members of the SPD board or leadership about the incident until Cunningham apologized over two years later.
“It felt like I didn’t exist. It just felt like the experience meant nothing to the people who played a part in it,” they said.

Cunningham, who left SPD in June, said in a statement that he “profoundly misread” the dinner and a number of situations with Worthen. Worthen said Cunningham referred to them as “my J.” and commented on their cheap lunches and “Midwestern work ethic.”
“I deeply apologize for any and all comments I made that were insensitive, and regret them. I never intended to hurt but now understand the unintended impact of my words. I have worked on and will continue to work on rooting out as much unconscious bias as I can in the hopes of being a better ally to marginalized people going forward,” Cunningham said in the statement.
Worthen said the issue was not just Cunningham’s behavior but the way the SPD board responded when employees came forward and denounced his behavior in posts online. In February 2021, Worthen says, they filed a harassment complaint when a different employee persistently misgendered them and sent them condescending messages. Cunningham was one of two people who determined whether that behavior violated SPD policies, emails shared with KQED show, even though a majority of SPD employees had previously penned an open letter that called for his termination or resignation.
Alan Bernheimer, the president of the SPD board of directors, did not comment on the work dinner or respond to questions related to the complaint about Cunningham’s behavior or how the board responded. He also declined interview requests and declined to answer almost all questions sent to him with criticism or allegations about Cunningham or SPD.
SPD did, however, hire a law firm, Oppenheimer Investigations Group, to conduct an independent assessment of the nonprofit earlier this year.
“The OIG assessment concluded that SPD needed a reboot of its management, workplace policies, and relationship between staff and leaders,” Bernheimer wrote in a statement to KQED. “The OIG report was completed the first week in March, and we announced [Cunningham’s] departure as [executive director] on March 8.”
In response to a series of questions sent to him last month, Bernheimer wrote in an email sent to KQED seemingly by mistake, “For any response we provide, we should strongly consider aligning with what Brent [Cunningham] is telling her [KQED reporter Holly McDede].”

He did not answer any specific questions after that, writing instead, “No further comment.”
Worthen, who learned they had cancer in 2019, worried the stress of staying at SPD could affect their health. Soon after they filed the complaint, they decided to leave the organization.
“I really felt like this could kill me, staying in a situation with no end in sight, having to deal with the person who harmed me, while the people who should have been holding him accountable were protecting him,” they said. “I needed to get away from that so that I can heal from cancer and have a fighting chance.”

A Reckoning for Literary Spaces
Since its founding in 1969, Berkeley-based Small Press Distribution has distinguished itself as the place for indie publishers to get experimental, avant-garde works in the hands of booksellers and customers nationwide. The nonprofit has a staff of fewer than a dozen people and works with some 400 presses, and has distributed titles that have won prestigious awards, like Pulitzer in poetry winner “Olio” by Tyehimba Jess. On its website, SPD emphasizes this commitment: “Everything we do is aimed at helping essential but underrepresented literary communities participate fully in the marketplace and in the culture at large.”
But some former employees said that incidents like what Worthen experienced, and an overall lack of personal or professional boundaries, were part of a broader problem at SPD. They said management seemed to push the idea that employees were more like friends than co-workers. Workers said that contributed to a toxic environment where staff concerns were not taken seriously or addressed through formal mechanisms, and it felt impossible to hold people accountable.
Bernheimer said in a public statement that human resources departments were not commonplace when SPD was founded in 1969, particularly in small nonprofits.
“But it’s inexcusable that we failed to grow with the times and that SPD employees suffered as a result,” Bernheimer wrote. “We believe a holistic HR approach, run by specialized experts, will preclude recurrences, as well as foster a healthy workplace with interactional and procedural justice for all.”







